my name is justin scofield, here is my story.
ever since I moved, I have been constantly bullied at my new school. I’ve heard it fucking all, I am gay, I hgave no life, i’m a fucking geek. i don’t care anymore, this fucking does it. I tried to seek help online, but nothing fucking matters anymore. that “it gets better” bullshit is so fake, that’s not true.
first off i of course like anyone tried out self-help online. i went on a few message forum s and my online community and my friends online for help, i felt like i was in a miserable state and i simply had to do something. thank you so much zeniea and everyone on there including ieattacos, win and everyone else. you really helped me get through this year, thank you for all your support. however things were not really working that well. no matter how much you try, nothing evef rchanges in the real, bullies keep on bulliying, shit keeps on happening, so you take u p a vice
so heres the first gripe about my country. ur above the influece bullshit does nothing, i mean it does completly nothing. drugs were a good part of my life ever since i was 11 and they actualy helped me so much! it all staarted back in illy, when we smoked spliffs behind 711 after skool.. that ganhja shit is real tight, however i didnt really get enough money to buy eights and buying by the gream i was just geting ripped of, so i stoppud using that.
neway, after that me and a few other kids in illy (no discrimination) started headin up to cvs and bought ourselves robitussin geltabs. at first we used nyquil but i got real sick of that sirup shit so just popping off 15 of those bad red boys just helped me relax. the days i used robitusin were probably the best, so very relaxed feeling andwe just played old games ahnd had a blast.
but then i had to fucking move, and thats when things went real south.
i knew i had to quit my shit, ova here they dont give u no tabs if ur not 18, so i of course dint have id and not many people over here would have bought me that. so of coruse i just lived through it until i foun this guy online (craiglist) that started to sell me oxycontin (opiates), at first i was real sketch and skeptical, bcuz i thought that shit was nasty, but LOL boy wuz i wrong. oxycontin made me feel something else (currently on it right now too, shit is the fire), it helped me cope with the bullying so much, just made me get away from it all, relax, have a drink and be one with mother nature.
but drugs and chemicals, how much are you gonna take them? shit wont change just becuz you nod off while hiding from ur mother in paranoia that she catches you while youre tripping off your balls, i thought i had to do something and not just sit off my ass, so yeah about my mother
i live with my mother, my dad’s not really involved in ym life that much AT ALL.. never really liked him. i fucking hate my mom. my mother is a heartless bitch, it seems like she never understands what i do and i have to constantly suck up to her, yet meanwhile i have to deal with my fuking issues at school which constantly just drain me up and make me feel like shit.. she hasnt been involved in ym life at all, wish i could be some other kid who can just talk it all out with his mom and it be all nice, so yeah, thanks u fuking cunt, for never understanding the real me, im not a kid anymore, its time to grow up, yet u still think time im same olkd jus.
so you know what, i’m tired of living in this country, this idiotic government just pisses me off, i took winter break as a positive time to learn up about what i can do to fix up both my life and both this countryu, but there is only one fucking way to do it!
look waht happened in new york! everybody comes out together and protests in that occupy wall street movement, look millions stand out there camping and protesting in tents and camps and dress up and make posters but that all doesnt fix it, we cannot change obama and this democratic government doesnt really work either. so i guess if millions can’t do it, i’m jhust going to have go out there with a bang and become a revolutonary!!!!!
look what adolpf hitler did, i read up on him and even read mein kampf, really liked the idea behind fascism. i’d rather live in a country like that!! maybe opression of the races, that isnt going too will with our minorities, but i understand. to be honest, i believe we as aryan americans we must extinguish the other races that are not pure. first we must get rid of niggers, because all they do is get the jobs that hardworking americans try to get for all of their lives while niggers because of the minority card get every single job!!
but it’s not jsut that, i could type for hours on end about what to do with all these fucking idiots in our country, actions speak louder than words after all. so i’m going to put out a statement, i will become a man of action. WE NEED IMMEDIATE ACTION AND THAT ACTION WILL HAPPEN NOW!!
on january 20th I will bomb my school (I WILL NOT REVEAL THE SCHOOL BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT THE FEDS TO CATCH ON, MY FRIENDS WHO READ THIS TUMBLR PLEASE DO NOT GO TO SCHOOL THAT DAY BECAUSE I REALLY RESPECT THE FEW FRIENDS I HAVE IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE YOU HAVE HELPMED ME SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU BUT I MUST DO THIS)
i have prepared a few explosaves, i have at my disposal currently 7 pipe bombs made with what i believe are sufficient materials to blow up at least 3 classrooms and the section of my cafeteria, becaus i believe i will kill the most people with it. i believe killing in this case is right, as it shows that at least some of the people have a word! I REPEAT OBAMA, I WILL NOT STAND UP FOR YOUR BULLSHIT. THE PEOPLE HAVE POWER, THIS IS A MESSAGE. i also will use my fathers beretta 98 to finish up what is left up INCLUDINGT THOSE FUCKING ASSHOLKES WHO RUINED MY LIFE. the las tpoint hasb een the absolute breaking pojnt kids hacked my website and then stole all my accounts and posted GAY PORN so now everyone thinks i am gay. THANKS A LOT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.
MOST OF ALL, THANKS TO THE USA FOR BEING ASSHOLES AND DOING NO ACTION AT ALL TO BULLIES WHO CONSTANTLY FUCK UP THE LIVES OF OTHER KIDS. WHERE IS THE FUTURE GENERATION? HUH? JUST SOME JOCKS WHO THROW LUNCH TRAYS AT YOU? IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT? WHERES THE FUCKING BRIGHT FUTURE YOU PROMISE US? THIS IS A JOKE YOU BREAK THE CAMELS BACK..